[[心。伤]]

久了，倦了。

谎言是最佳的武器。

被攻击的，是颗受不了伤害的心。

心，淌着血，可怜兮兮地祈求着怜惜。

但，伤害，没有停止。

反而加倍地攻击。

心，感到了害怕。

甚至变得冷漠了。

它要逃开那伤害它的魔掌。

它开始选择了封闭，不再过问, 不要去想。

欺骗与谎言拿走了它的安全感。

因此，它要保护自己。

曾经，它认为它再也不会受到伤害。

原来，那是它的天真。

心的开启，得到了再一次的攻击。

它怕了，累了。

因此，

心，再次封闭。

直到永远？它不知道。

它已不要再被伤害。

[[16102010]]

16102010 was J3peace's small gathering without Miss Cai. xD I quite happy for this.Blek =P


I went to watch "The Child's Eye" with Jun Xian, How You, Wei Fu, and Siew Yen.Three stupid guys and two "siao po"~~!!! Jun Xian came fetch me with his Proton Saga.What I couldn't accept was his "Saga" 's door have spoiled, I can't open it!!!>< but other people can open it.Damn Shui!

In the cinema, we keep laughing at Siew Yen as she keep saying that she don't want watch already.She closed her eyes and ears with her hand all the time.I and Jun Xian keep laughing when we saw her pattern. Quite funny.~!!! =}This movie wasn't scary at all. But it's not bad if no compare with Western 's movie.Haha.... 

After watched the movie.As Yen need to have lunch with her family ,so I went with three guys them.Wow~We went to eat HO LIAO.=} Really appreciated that time. I missed it.

How you ~!!!He ate the most...see his size can know already.Haha 

See this guy!!!Wear Formal suit eat crab!!!x} Really "suitable".

Rich man ate so many too.He and How You --Super Kin Kong.=}

The next---My turn!!!! =} Really so nice!!!咸蛋螃蟹！

Haha~Guo Bao not ate, she just come find us when we have finished eaten.

How you 's head disappeared~!!!!

Next turn!!!How you 's appeared, but Jun Xian's face only half.x}

This really broke record ah!!!Four of us ate till RM 98.This was not expensive. But we really ate so many.

What have we eaten:

1. Siam Rice[Medium]

2.India Mee[Medium]

3.Crab 1.5 Kg 

4.Siam Rice[Big]

Wow~That's really so full for all of us.I 'm so happy went out with them.We have chatted many things and our memories.We really appreciated it.So , we promised!!!Next time go out again!!!Haha x} Miss Cai, you missed the chance.Hehe....






So, 16102010. The end. Ciaos......=}

[[Turn back to Happy Xian]]

Yesterday I don't know why I think so much,and suddenly I felt that I thoughtout somethings.Now, I felt that Happy Xian is coming back.Her smile ,her laugh, her naughty will come back soon.


DecemberXian said to Happy Xian:" Finally you come back, Emo Xian please get out from here."




Happy Xian realized that she can love someone else, but also need to love herself too.She want to care about herself too.Don't hurt herself again;don't torture herself anymore.She want happy as last time as she first time met him.=} No war, no cold, no cry.




Welcome back.Happy Xian.
Please enjoy your life now.x}You want to be happy more than last time.You want bliss, you want joy. Bring your passion on it.=}

[[D.I.A.R.Y]]

This title look weird right? Hahaha~ I think so.Why do I put this title as this few day I 've been touched many things related to "Diary" this word.x}

The first is "Vampire Diaries".Woots!!!That's really awesome!!!I love it so much.I addicted to it.I don't know why ,I love to watch vampire's movie very much.Now I 've already finished the Season 1, and now I watched till Season 2 episode 5. Now I gonna wait for the next episode.Please be faster!I can't wait it.

My buddies, please go watch it.x}

She is the main character of this movie.I love she so much.She is really pretty.<3

The next is the song names "Diary".Arh!!!I 've been heard it for a long time when I drove to Kampar at car.I kept finding, and yesterday I heard it again.I asked K do he know what was the name of this song.He said that it was "Diary". I can't believe I can't hear it out when I heard this song. The lyric is "I read your diary", but guys , I think you guys wont know what do I heard from it. I thought is " I'm vegetary." How stupid was I!!! =.=''' That's why I can't find it although I know that's not have vegetary this word in this world. I 'm fall in love to this song when I first time hear it.I love it rhythm very much.Especially is the rhythm of " I read your diary". =}


Here is the song 's lyric.
Diary
by Tino Coury

I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)


I-I read your diary (Tino, d-d-d-diary)


I saw a book with lock and key right next to your name
I-I-I couldn't help myself 'cause things ain't just been the same (Uh-Oh)
Can you please tell me, 'cause this so insane
My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (readin')


Page 1
Says that your fallin' in and outta love
Page 2
Says all the things I do just ain't enough
Page 3
No I couldn't see
Page 3 says you don't know how to explain it to me


But I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)


But I read your diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh


I turned the page and see a picture of you and him
Noo noo noo
That was the night you told me you where out with your friends
And now I know that my kiss was just a second


My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (from readin')


Page 4
Says your addicted to sexting him every night
Page 5
Has all the reason you know that this isn't right
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com 
Page 6
I can't handle this, I feel just like JT wanna cry me a river


'Cause I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)


But I read your diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh


Lets make a list
Broken promises
How you always told me you loved me right after every kiss
You always talked about all them other chicks
And now it's obvious that we know who the real b*tch is


B*tch is....B-B-B*tch is...B*tch


I-I-I-I read your diary d-d-d-diary


I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)


But I read your diary (ohoho)
Diary
Diary
I read your diary
D-d-d-diary



Okay , That's all I want to say today.I think it 's enough. =D


My sem break gonna end , still have 4 days to go. I don't feel to go back. ={


Ciaos!!!!

[[你可以不用在我身边，至少让我知道你在哪里]]

Copy from Facebook.

This is what I want to tell you.Maybe you won't see this as it 's mandarin.But this 's what am I thinking.


多少次有着那股冲动想要与你分手，
多少次受不了你那霸道与不了解我，
多少次觉得我们其实并不适合相爱，
最终，我都还是得承认其实我爱你...


你就是个大忙人，总有着忙不完的事情，
等不到你的信息，等不到你的来电，
想要找你，打给你又怕你觉得我很烦，
结果一个人过着，幻想着，胡思乱想着...


想着，你会不会和其他异性在一起，
想着，你倒是是不是真的爱我，
想着，爱我为什么不能拨出一点时间给我，
想着，是不是自己做错了什么惹你生气了
，想着，我们会不会就这样玩完，结束了...


你不能陪我，我不怪你，但你却没有通知，
只会在事后和我说当时真的很忙很忙，
我看不见，不知道，也不懂该如何相信你，
但我知道，最终我会选择什么都相信,不因为什么，
只因为我是真的爱你...


其实我知道你真的没有想要骗我什么，
只是我自己真的想太多了，
一找不到你，一颗心就慌就乱了，
开始有着许许多多的不安想法浮现，
想这个，想那个，想到自己的心情也不好了，
想找些其他的事情来分散自己的注意力，
最后才发现，自己根本就无法专心完成了...


你忙，我不怪你，我知道你有你的世界，
你爱我，也不需要放弃全世界只为博我一笑，
我要的，只是一个简单的通知与交待，
至少不会让我每天都得为他胡思乱想，
其实这真的只是件很简单的事情，
只是对你而言，却很难做的好...
你可以不在我的身边，至少让我知道你在哪里...

[[F.E.A.R]]

This few days, I felt that there are something change between us.I don't know what is changing , but I can feel something is changing.I feel SCARE, I keep calling myself  don't think too much. But I'm afraid , I keep worry , and he don't know. ={

He was nothing say to me. I feel strange to him this few days.Suddenly , I feel that I don't know who is him.I totally can't get what he was thinking recently.I feel something changed... Do he realize?


He is a stranger for me?! I feel strange to him , I don't know why.I know he was busying this few days, but I don't think that I felt strange because of he was busying. From that time we went out while I came back from Kampar second day, I have already feel something changed between us.He don't seem to last time, I can feel it.The feel he gave me not same as last time. What happen? I don't know. I feel that he was far away from me, but I can't do anything?


He will leave? or He is going to leave ?
I don't know.I can't do anything. If god really want he to leave, I will accept. I try hard to maintain this relationship, and it's really very hard for me to maintain. I have already try my best. I believe that is mine then is mine, not my wan I take it 's also won't longer for me.


If he really leave me , I will try all my heart to accept it. I believe fate, if he is the right one , then he is.If he not, he will leave at the last.


 Is it he is my soul mate?I don't know.


I just know , I BELIEVE FATE.


I feel scare , I fear , but I also know that fear is useless.


I will lose him? I don't know. I just know if he is the right one , he will be with me until the end.

Fear inside my heart.

Can anyone help me to take it out?

Scare is surrounding my mind.

Lose him will be my nightmare.

Confidence surrender to afraid.

I can't predict the future.

Soul mate exist in this world?

There's just a unanswerable question.

Fate belong to us.

But, that is we create our fate or fate lead us to the end?

[[♥♥♥摩羯CapricornV.S处女Virgo♥♥♥]]

魔羯座女生

摩 羯 女 子 没 空 陪 男 人 玩 爱 情 游 戏 ， 你 也 别 想 改 变 她 的 想 法 ． 男 人 要 勾 引 她 ， 先 以 你 的 体 贴 善 意 把 她 从 沉 寂 的 塔 里 勾 出 ， 再 用 你 做 事 认 真 的 态 度 ， 引 发 她 对 你 的 好 感 ． 设 法 得 到 她 的 住 址 ， 如 果 她 和 她 的 家 人 同 住 ， 那 么 大 好 机 会 可 就 来 了 ． 你 最 好 到 她 家 拜 访 她 ， 但 一 定 要 先 得 到 她 的 允 许 ， 摩 羯 女 子 有 传 统 家 庭 观 念 ， 善 待 她 的 家 人 ， 她 会 对 你 更 友 善 ． 你 要 给 她 可 以 依 靠 的 感 觉 ， 并 且 让 她 多 开 心 ， 因 为 她 是 这 么 的 抑 郁 自 己 ．

处女座男生

处 女 座 的 男 人 从 来 都 不 敢 永 于 承 认 自 己 就 是 处 女 座 的 ， 因 为 他 们 害 羞 胆 小 ， 所 以 请 妳 绝 对 不 要 在 他 最 沮 丧 的 时 候 拿 别 的 男 人 跟 他 们 比 较 ， 除 非 妳 已 经 决 定 不 要 妳 的 处 女 座 男 人 。 处 女 座 男 人 要 的 是 懂 事 而 且 谦 虚 的 女 人 ， 所 以 好 切 忌 自 以 为 是 ， 如 果 妳 是 个 没 有 常 识 的 女 人 ， 没 有 常 识 最 起 码 也 要 懂 得 掩 饰 ， 要 不 然 真 的 就 要 多 多 的 看 电 视 啰 ！ 少 去 烦 处 女 座 的 男 人 吧 ！

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2星座配合度为80以上

配对建议评语 魔羯座的女人像块冰山一般，非有过人的耐力无法使她融化，所以对于同是土象星座的处女座就比较有利，处女座虽然不是以耐力取胜，但实事求是、精准无误，懂得打点取胜，这是他们获得魔羯女人芳心的秘诀，在此交集点上两人容易陷入情网，也能够相处愉快，不过双方还是有一定的隔阂，缘因处女和魔羯不善于表达自己的情感，也不懂得制造生活上的情趣，因此两性关系外人看来是枯燥乏味，不过，懂得相敬如宾也不失为一种圆满的两性关系。

Capricorn and Virgo

When Virgo and Capricorn come together, it's a pragmatic and sensible partnership. Both Signs are rational and intelligent, and both expect a lot of themself and others. Virgo appreciates Capricorn's dedication and tenacity and Capricorn admires Virgo's practicality and attention to detail. Together they will form a stable, solid union based firmly in reality.This relationship has a strong foundation which is based on material security and a realistic approach to life in general. Neither Sign is ruled by their emotions or impulses and both are dependable and conservative. Virgo can help Capricorn to relax a little and appreciate all they have worked to attain. Capricorn can help Virgo achieve goals and makes dreams a reality through initiation. They live a very comfortable life together. Virgo is ruled by Mercury and Capricorn is ruled by Saturn. Mercury is a pragmatic, communicative energy and Saturn a cool, energy. Mercury is about being communicative. Saturn is about hard work and discipline to achieve goals. Virgo will show Capricorn the rewards of hard work and assist in keeping the relationship, business or home front a well-oiled machine. Capricorn can teach Virgo to be more disciplined and to keep focused on goals. Together this couple will share a life of domestic and professional bliss. Virgo and Capricorn are both Earth Signs. In addition to order and succinctity, Virgo-Capricorn partners usually surround themselves with tasteful and discriminating posessions. They would rather hold out for perfection than settle for an adequate substitute. Along with their desire to be financially secure, their love of fine things provokes this couple to put in long hours and a tremendous energy toward fulfilling dreams and obtaining end results. Additionally, they are a practical pair, and they rarely have problems caused by one partner's conspicuous consumption. Virgo is a Mutable Sign and Capricorn is a Cardinal Sign. Virgo is easily adaptable to any situation and has no problem working with The Goat as long as they have a sufficient role in the project. Capricorn likes the fact that Virgo is entirely dedicated to the relationship. Capricorn can bring new ideas into the picture (particularly in a business relationship) and start new projects that Virgo will enjoy taking over later. These Signs will work well together if Capricorn can initiate ideas and Virgo can continue them.The best aspect of the Virgo-Capricorn relationship is their dedication to the same ends. Both partners enjoy a secure lifestyle and nice things, and work very well together to achieve their goals -- especially if the goal involves shared resources. Their mutual interests makes theirs a highly successful relationship.