[[最后的结局]]

最后的结局

是我想象中的结局里的其中一种

不难猜　很多人都不祝福这段

姐弟恋

莫名其妙的心动　曾经是快乐的回忆

一年四个月　相差三年的我们

不长不短　这也许就是姐弟恋的期限

无法沟通　无法了解　更无法谅解

争吵　不停不休

伤害　不减却增

眼泪　流不完　流不停

终于　结局　出现了

痛到顶点　就是痛苦离开的时候

永远不会忘　为了这段痛彻心肺的恋情

最后的一刻　放弃的那一刻

差点　差一点　我哭得　差点休克了

那一刻的窒息感　让我洞悉了一切　

时间到了　放手会快乐点

原来　哭会让人休克　

那是怎么样的悲伤的哭泣？

爱吗　很爱

恨吗　非常恨

恨他　不懂得珍惜我

恨他　不懂得疼惜我

恨他　不懂得让我快乐

恨他　不懂得如何爱我

但　我不会再爱一个根本不会爱我的人

这样　就结局了

我在决定结束那一刻　就是我哭得差点休克的那一刻

爱我的人　不会让我的心碎了

爱我的人　根本不会让我哭得差点　休克了

哭过就好了

　利用时间的帮忙

回去充满笑容与喜悦的我

我能的

搞怪照送上

[[我就是一直在变!]]

我又心血来潮地来更新我的部落格。

似乎很久，我已没用华文来更新。

原谅我，我找不回以前用华文打部落格的感觉了。

我再也不像以前般对华文能得心应手的运用了。

现在，我为我的华文感到自卑，因为我真的退步了很多。=(

今天，

我就来放放我从初中到现在的照片吧!

我真的觉得很恐怖，因为我似乎每一年都在改变。=.='''

2004- 2006 之间

现在看回我以前的照片，我真的有点汗颜。

我一定会Edit照片，然后把照片弄模糊。

现在，我发现那些照片根本就看不到五官。

那时，Friendster还是主流阿!

大家都在Friendster那里做了很多很蠢的事情。

这就是童年。哈哈

2007- 2009

这个时候，走“浓妆”期。

不是我化浓妆，是我的照片都化浓妆。

我都会把照片Edit成较暗的色调。

还有，都会很EMO！哈哈

我现在看回，我发现自己原来真的很会Edit照片! =.=||| *暗爽着*

不像我的我?哈哈

2009 - 2011(现在)

刚从兴华毕业后的照片

开始没什么Edit照片了，应该是懒惰吧。哈哈

接下来的，

是每年都在变发型。=.='''

我在“金毛”的时候

这个发型和发色是最适合我的。

我那长长的头发，我真的很想念。

那时是我人生中的第一次染发。@.@

接下来就是我人生中的错误出现了。

我把我那又长又直的头发烫卷。

这成了我人生中的遗憾。

因为顶不顺我那恶心的卷发。

两三个月后我就烫直了。

烫直时就把我的头发给修短了。='( 

而且过不久我顶不顺我的头发像lala那样，我就把它染黑了。

本来以为这样就会结束了。

但是，我又忽略了我那一直在改变的心。

我又白痴到把我留蛮长的头发给剪短了。

哇靠，我真的很犯贱!

我的头发被剪得好短阿! 我欲哭无泪。T.T

现在

的

我

是

现在我已经很少Edit我的照片了。

由于Iphone拍照很麻烦，所以我现在连自拍都很少了。

我的照片变得好少啊! =(

我现在有个目标，

我已下定决心不再剪我的头发!

我要把头发留长，

恢复以前的模样。

头发阿~我亲爱的头发，请您快点长吧!

这就是近几年来的我。

变化无常吧？

这次就到为止啦。

下次我考虑放上我小时候的照片!

那会让更多人，叹为观止! 

=）

[[I'm not gonna disappear again]]

Huisehhhh~ I can't believe I 'm typing my blog right now.

There is really so so so long I din't touch my blog.

I lost my enthusiasm on typing blog.

I don't know why, I don't know.

For a period, I think that I want to quit blog and close my bloggie. 

Yet, I'm coming back to here again. A paradise full of my memories.

I love my blog because there is a lot of happy memories inside here.

My friend, my school, my exam , every detail!

I'm back for searching the previous "Me".

Everything is changing. Friends, studies, family, jobs......Everything.

Every time I come back to my bloggie with different feeling.

I'm in the way to be matured. Maybe?

In my mind now, I feel guilty of bluffing my mum. 

I know she is caring of me.I know she love me.

And I love her too.

The far distance let me realized that family is important for me. 

I can't live without them.

What had I bluffed on my mum? 

Yes! That is my relationship.

I scare of telling my mum I 'm in relationship with someone right now.

I can't imagine how she gonna to act on this matter.

Angry? Reject? or Happy and accepted?

I want a relationship accept by my family, can I ?

Mum, will you?

I'm not a child anymore, I'm growing up.

I know what am I thinking.

Next year I gonna be 21 years old, I can't believe the time pass so fast..

The reality is cruel enough, I need to accept it.

I'm not gonna to leave my bloggie anymore.

I'm back with a newest me!

Who am I? I'm DecemberXian. =D

[[Penang One-Day-Trip-Penang Hill]]

Opppsss! I really so so so so long didn't update my dear blog. Don't ask me why, just because I lazy and don't feel to update. Recall to my Senior 3 life, Blog is my LIFE. I typed everything on my blog! Including UEC that time! But why, everything is change! ='( I leave my blog too! Haizzzzzz

 

Today I gonna update my blog with a one day trip on Penang. =) Actually it has already passed few weeks ago. 

Due to one of my assignment has to write a travel article,  all my group-mates decided to go PENANG. Good right?! Penang has many HO LIAO can eat! Hehehehehehe   *Woots Woots*

#Heading to Penang!!!#

*Left is our "kicap" --Mr. Isaac. *

Right is Our "Driver"-- Mr.Chian Seong.* 

Both of them are PENANG-IAN!=P

Miss May and Miss Lee Xien. =P

*Appear* Oh! Here I am! Miss Decemberxian! x)

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Our extraordinary traveler! Chian Seong's Car Bear Bear! xD

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#Heading to Our First Destination!!!#

PENANG HILL♥

Kia kia kia....Go sit cable car lorrrrrrrrrrr~ x)

Actually is quite cheap for Malaysian. xD We are student, So it just cost us RM4. 

Hehe! Why May Ma looks so serious when she take her money out of her wallet? @.@

Hey, That's CABLE CAR. C for CABLE CAR!LOL

If you think that the cable car is so slow then YOU ARE WRONG!

It is DAMN fast! No need 5 minutes , we've already reached the top of Penang Hill. 

The top of Hill! Mr.Isaac so busy capture around. :P

See! There can capture photo with snake but need $$ lar! LOL

Ang Mo Lang! The boy is so adorable and handsome! I hope that I can bring him back ! xD

Wow! BOOM BOOM BOOM! 

Do you guys feel that this picture got abit horny? Hehe!

Oppppsss! Is the end! 

Last time while I didn't go Penang Hill before, I won't think to go there as I think there is not fun at all!

But after I went, I feel that Penang Hill is so nice.It  was not so bad as I thought. 

The weather of Penang Hill is cold also , same as Genting!xD I love it!

If anyone want to go , please go ahead! I strongly suggest! :P 

Okay, This post gonna end here! I will update the other destination on the next post! 

Enjoy it ya! xD

[[Year 2 LIFE]]

Hey, I'm back again! >< But actually I just pretend I 'm back as I feel so hopeless for my bloggie. I have no any motivation to write it! =( Sad for my laziness.LOL


Okay! So fast, Now I 'm year 2 in UTAR already. It 's damn fast! Just awhile, Year 2! I can't believe just awhile, I Year 3 already. Time pass faster, but I know I have improved also. =) 


Take a look for my Year 1 Trismester 3 's Result. No A , No C. It is middle level. LOL

See! This is my RESULT. It 's no as good as my coursemates who get in Dean 's List with All A's result. I know I can't compare to them as my english is weak. But , I really try hard to improve. 

I satisfied with this result as I thought this semester I gonna retake some subject. But, luckily I need not to do it.All B's is no shame, it bring my confident back to me. Thanks god! I should appreciate that you let me get in a class with high quality coursemates. They really teach my a lot of things. =)

I have passed my Year 2 life two days. I really glad that I choose Advertising to be my minor. I know I prefer it more. If I choose Political Science, I think I will die quickly. I will instead on my choice and make harder on it. Nothing is impossible , it just see you want to do it or not. 

Okay! My friends, Let us ADD OIL together! We can go through this all obstacles! Nothing will bring us down! I know I always in down mood, but I won't give up for what I have chosen. 

I want to prove to everybody: I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

So, just a short post. So Ciaos. 

By,

[[Crazy over Vampire Dairies Again]]

Hey, DecemberXian appear.=)

Today I finish my last subject of FINAL. *Woot Woot* But, the last subject I gonna fail and retake? I don't know.But I really don't know how to do.The first mind when me saw the question paper, I was thinking," FUCK, the lecturer lie us!" He gave us the tips but the tips didn't out. Seriously I need to complaint , his notes are just F***king useless!!! His notes just full of pictures and images , the sentences all pointless.Do you think we can study a pointless notes and get a good result?! Okay, if any offense then I'm apology. I just say out my opinion. 

Okay, don't say about Final anymore. Now is Sem Break. Woohooooooooo!!! =D My happy time!

And Now, Imma say about the VAMPIRE DIARIES. Yeepeeyaya..yeepeyepeya! Yes! When I reached Klang  and my sweet home , I slept. After woke up, I watched Vampire Diaries S2E21---The Sun Also Rises. It 's damn awesome!!!! I 'm crazy over this movie again as this episode.This episode is the greatest ever in Vampire Diaries. =)

In this episode, John died, Jenna Died, and the most "gan jiong" is Damon is dying soon as he has bitten by Taylor.>< Klaus....Yuck! Elijah, you are so handsome but why you betray Stefan them ? Stupid lar!

John's note, the song, Elena's tears, Damons face, Damons bite, Alaric, the roses...this all plus together and make this episode damn touching.

John is writing the letter to Elena(his daughter) as he would like to use his life to exchange Elena 's life.In the letter, a statement wrote in, 

"I love you all the same as I have always loved you and always will, John"

This scene is Klaus kill Jenna, this scene is so touching. Jenna is so pity , I can't believe she will die in this episode.She is so nice and gorgeous.I don't like her death. =(

Damon love Elena very very much. I feel to cry when he tell Elena,

"Come back as a vampire and I will stake you myself cause I cant stand the idea of you hating me forever."

He is so great,and charming. =) Next Thursday , will be the Season Finale of Vampire Diaries. I can't wait to watch it. I'm so gan jiong for it. I don't want Damon die!!He cannot die!!!

Arh!Next Thursday, I 'm looking forward to you,Vampire Diaries. =) <3 

[[我的最新“作文”？]]

由于我读的是新闻系，而我的coursemates开了一个部落格让我们报导我们想要报导的新闻以及看法。 而今天我为那个部落格写了我的第一个报导，那就是现在在面子书爆红的短片---国中生欺凌同学。

好久好久没写作文了，所以我这次就自荐自己来报导这个事件。 哈哈

刚才我可用了很多时间来写着一篇报导，因为我发现我的华文退步了，有好多我想表达的东西，我忘了该用什么词来写。=( 该死的！我是时候进修我的华文了！ ><

想不到离开了兴华，我的华文就一落千丈。可悲可悲 ~~~~~~

但是，我会继续加油的！ =) 我不会放弃我自己最爱的东西！

这是我从兴华毕业后的第一篇“作文”



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